“And more, much more than this…
I did it my way” (F.Sinatra)
I am sleeping. Or not.
I am dreaming. Or not.
I am here. Or not.
Who am I?
Am I a copy? Am I a fake?
Am I an original piece of this world? Am I ME?
Unfortunately, and I am aware of my “unfortunately” word, we are original pieces. Someone gave us a prodigious gift: someone gave us ourselves. We are born unique, we are born as us.
But… as Lucifer decided to be “different”, and we all know the story, we also opted for transforming our innate nonconformism into a perfectly homogenized conformism. This is the irony: in our sleepless attempt to be special, we always end up in an annoying banality. It is all about our lack of self esteem and about us underestimating ourselves. We always tend to believe that everyone is significantly better than us, that everyone”s ideas are much more plausible. Vicious circle.
Being a nonconformist does not imply “fabricating” ourselves to smile, dress or behave in a specific way we consider a target by following a general recipe. It is just like pushing the “play” button. No, nonconformism is about preserving that innate part of us which is our forever and personal trademark. We do not have to wear THOSE clothes to reach a certain level on the virtual pyramid of nowadays society. We do not have to go THERE or to do THAT. We do not have to use a commonly known trademark to give the false impression that we want to break a pattern.
WE ARE TRADEMARKS.
Just because the gift of being unique is as old as we are does not mean that it is old-fashioned. This permanent attempt to transform it in a more trendy one by copying or by following other people”s way is nothing more than a repeated failure in searching the only nonconformism that exists: the one from our souls, from our brains. We could never be like-minded. So why do we struggle to gain a place in the huge crowd called “mass production”? Does that mean that we are constantly fighting against our purpose on this world? We are not machines. Not yet. We are sensitive humans with warm souls and red blood, not those pseudo-humans of the future called robots – we have to admit that the nowadays nonconformism is simply transforming us into perfectly similar robots.
That is why I keep asking myself “why do I have to be a nonconformist like everybody else?”(J.T.) Am I not allowed to do things in my way?
What is happening to our society?
Despite the fact that I do/can not have a reply to this rhetorical question, I know a certain thing, the most valuable one for me: until now, I did it my way. I prefer to be a nonconformist like me, not like everybody else.
I am a trademark and I know it. You are a trademark. Did you know it?
Acest eseu este castigatorul premiului special in cadrul 2012 Shakespeare School Essay Competition, grupa de varsta 15-19 ani. Premiul a constat intr-un voucher de reducere in valoare de 200 RON pentru un curs intensiv de vara de 2 saptamani la Shakespeare School, carti de la Fischer International si de la Carturesti si materiale promotionale de la Vitastal Consulting. O felicitam pe Gabriela pentru eseul ei care s-a evidentiat din alte mii de eseuri trimise la concursul national de creatie in limba engleza organizat de Shakespeare School si ii uram mult succes in continuare!